WHEN I THINK ABOUT YOU
When I think about you, I think about my last birthday. A moment not too long ago, but also one that’s not so far away. I remember at the beginning of that year, I said that 2016 was just going to be a continuation of 2015 - aspiring towards my long term goals. I took chances (still am), I made mistakes (still am), and I learned from them (still am). You are my milestone - reminding me of the old me and the me that I will become.
When I think about you, I think about Spring Break 2015. I took a jump off a cliff into water - a leap from the past and a leap of faith. I was hesitant at first and was thinking about taking the stairs back down, but I knew it would be a chance I’d regret not taking. I took a chance of getting to know myself - something that I wish I had done earlier. Two years earlier maybe. Just not too close to graduation. You remind me of a missed opportunity, and how precious time is to be putting hope to waste. Never keep your expectations too high.
When I think about you, I think about a church retreat I went to one Memorial Day weekend. I was singing and laughing with the company I had there. We weren’t anything at all blood related, but somehow connected by souls. I was surrounded and embraced by the fellowship and unity of everybody throughout that weekend. We were all accepted by one another. We were like a family. At the end of the day, I was able to lie down in bed and feel a sense of warmth and grace. You remind me that there’s always a shoulder to lean on - no matter where we go and how far we may be in time.
When I think about you I think about the time I went to EDC LV - a time of spontaneity and risk. Like many other festivals, I met people who I knew I wasn’t going to ever see again. I let myself go to the beat of the music, dancing so foolishly without a care in the word. I went on the big Ferris wheel and saw the entire view of the event right at the very top. It was massive. I couldn’t believe I was there. You remind me to live on the edge of my seat and to seize the moments while they last.
When I think about you, I think about the time I went to California - five full days of dream and hope. A nick of time that accepted my highs and lows. Not even the money I had in my pocket mattered to me. It was a moment where I was lying on the floor and taken over by laughter and company. I was happy. Every chased sunset reminded of the things I aspire for in life and the family I realized I cherish. You remind me to reflect on how lucky I am for the things that I have in this world and nothing more.
That’s what I think about when I think about you.